and this leads me to reflect on things i dislike about myself.
KILLER NO: 1) i'm seriously lacking in vigilance and digilence, which means i procastinate alot too. what the hell? i wish i'd know.
2) fickle-mindedness. what's so difficult about making a decision when you only have 2 choices? damnnn.
3) inability to express my thoughts at all times. i dont know what's the problem with me, it seems like i have diffculties expressing myself once-in-awhile. wtf?
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here's all that i can think now. there should be at least 10 on the list, but i guess they've slipped and diffused into the holes in my brain again.
...and the most irresponsible week as a class-rep too.
*bang*banG*BANG*
somebody SHOOT ME PLS!
i've learnt. it's pointless to kick a who-gives-a-damn fuss about something you can't change. no matter how annoyed and pissed off you are, there's nothing you can do to undo every thing, or the last thing you did. i admit, if i were in my old unreasonable and self now, i'd more or less blame my friends for not telling or reminding me about any changes made, and probably let out my dismay on any of them. haha.. but like what i said, i've learnt! and grown mature too. really. take this morning for instance; knowing that i'm sure to miss the submission time, i wasn't angry or whatever shit you can associate with anger at all. growing older isn't a bad thing afterall, cos it made me realised how childish i was back in secondary school- or even yesterday! but honestly, i really really hope that i'll remain 18 forever. really. i hate to say i still have 4 months before i bid adieu to 18 for the rest of my life.
to you readers out there... are u feeling exactly how i felt?